I saw an expression today that made an impression on me. It said something about appreciating what you have before you have to appreciate what you had. This rang true because, undoubtedly, I do have to appreciate what I have. And I have it good, despite all of my complaining, which I am not proud of. However, I am also struck thinking about things I once had and loved and didn’t appreciate when I had them.
Looking back on the things I appreciate once having, I am inspired to appreciate the things I have more now. I am ashamed of the excuses I make for the things I don’t have. Excuses provide me with no benefit. They are what they sound like, excuses. When you have an “excuse” this is only motivation to find another way to accomplish this task. I think calling them reasons puts them in a better light then the name I used previously.
I need to take the chance to rejuvenate my network of friends, as I have learned that my strong network of friends was the reason I had a lot of the happiness I once had. However, many of my friends have moved away, and those still here are married or busy with employment or other ventures. I feel lonely, but I should use this feeling as motivation.
Perhaps I do need a new adventure, a new life somewhere else where I am not expected to already have a strong network of friends there. Of course, there are many things I appreciate right here. My family, the support and activities here for people with impaired vision like mine, and the friends I do still have here. A new adventure is only one of many ideas. Of course new employment would rejuvenate my mind, but finding employment to fill a personal need is not likely to find a position. It is true that I want to give back, and maybe my previous idea of being a career student isn’t as ideal as I once thought.
I am currently pondering. I don’t have any answers to my questions yet. I always appreciate any input, but I acknowledge that this is a decision I have to make for myself. Hopefully we’ll speak soon.